Delivered Letter

I wrote yu a letter.
The bruises, the scraps that came from my fingertips.
Created this masterpiece.
All my wants and desires.
My hopes and my dreams.
Dripped in ink upon my white sheets.
This letter contained everything
That my tongue would not let me untie.
A vivid picture; more like a painting
Of how the inside of my heart looks.
Da Vinci himself could not paint a more elaborate picture.
Einstein could not come up with a superior concept than I
To explain to thee in words.
I carefully placed my letter in a bottle
And let the edges of my feet touch the tip of the shore.
Debating whether I should risk the journey
And let my bleeding fingertips be set out in this ocean.
As my emotions weaved through the waves
I can only hope my heart reaches its destination.
See… I wrote yu this letter
And it was sent out to sea
Somethings locked, and I hope yu have the key.
BrittNicole-

Condemned

Today I let yu get to me.
I was weak.
Why I let yu get so close
When I maintained yu at a distance.
Not listening to myself
Gets me to where im at.
Starting as a emotionless attraction
With unattached words.
Yu anger me with yur pride
But yet I seem to never stay mad.
Yu have become my forbidden fruit
The one im not suppose to touch.
But yet im a woman.
With the weakness of eve within me.
Disappointed by truth my apple will rust,
Not knowing if my lust will overwhelm me.
But lust has hurt me before
The kind that has changed a life.
At times I seem to care so much
That I stop caring at all.
I try to keep my mind open to love yu
But my heart is secretly prepared to let yu go.
A constant breakdown in my mind
Of yur unfair, my selfish, way of thinking
Situation.
Then I stop…
And think…
I wont cry.
It makes me weak.
But the feeling makes me write.
Write stupid poetry about love and hate.
Yur getting me like this..
Again.
Yur giving me emotions
Pain.
Want.
Hope.
Love.
Anxiety.
Im opening up again.
Damn. Im a poet
Again.
Life.

BrittNicole-

Just a Thought#2**

A concrete smile
that i am unacquainted with
seems to overwhelm me with confusion.
my mind is twisted, concluded that
my heart is no longer embedded underneath my ribs.
no heart, that could pump blood through my veins
which would leave me..breathless.
as my sun-kissed cheeks rose
at the aspiration of you relieving my pain.
my frame stiffens
and my face is flushed.
as i forgot how it felt to be admired.
so i thank you.
because happiness is all i desired.

Brittnicole-

fundamentals of life.

so i know i havnt posted in a while just been on some lowkey type of ish.

if you want to read this then cool if not then dont.

for the last two months i think i have been beyond nice.

took ppls opinions in consideration when i really shouldnt of thought twice about what

they.

thought.

well i guess this is the new me. same person and everything but i dont think

im ever going to allow someone to use me again. i thought i was the problem when in all reality i wasnt. i know what i want out of life and its definitely not bad karma. i guess you can say im not

lost.

i know who i am (or at least learning more about myself everyday)

ive learned you cant teach someone how to grow up. its something that comes natural..kind of something you adapt too.

so right now i have people in my life that need to be in my life for the moment or maybe even forever who knows. people come in & out of your life just to get you to the next chapter in your book.

once the chapter has ended you keep reading. life goes on.

there is really no explanation for why things happen they just do.

ill look back on these last two months and say

damn.

it may be stormy right now..but it cant rain forever=)

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so me and the girls took a lil vaca to LA this weekend to get away. i can say i have never laughed so much in one weekend too much fun
met up with some pretty cool people..made new friends sooo for the most part the weekend was
doooppeee... lol

so this weekend is making me rethink my location.. i could deff do cali for a while get my stuff together. idk. AZ just has old memories and hot weather. lol.

Sex in the City Ladies/Reckless

But we Are O so ReckLess

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so we went swimming and had a sex in the city moment night.

so like imagine us like 50 years from now super old and ish.. hahahah o gosh i hope not


Can anyone guess which one of the girls from the sex in the city movie lol ??? if you know our personalities you might be able to get 2 out of 4 lol

& when i need comfort they will be the first i call. =)