Unappealing Eye?

yu make me despise
the way yu are.
how yu act.
how yu feel.
yur thinking ability
is equal to a child
a child that is not ready
to grow up.
but yet i got close..
caught up in this fairy tale
fantasy.
A fantasy thats merely
only a dream.
a simple..wish,
a hope
that yur
incompetent feelings
will help my inability to understand
how yu think.
easy for yu to just call another
girl,
and hard for me..

to let go.

me wondering if yur words
are only in my ears..
i make excuses to
not be mad at yu

but how could i not?

when yu cant be
real..
wit me
the truth in my words
are not compatible with
yur actions.
so attached, overwhelmed
with feelings for yu.
as yu brush me off
like a nat!?
buggn' the shit out of yu.

but who are yu?.....

the "man" that wants
me changed?
keep my inner being
but
change my outer look
as if im not appealing
to yur
eye.
like i need to be a damn
perfect super model for
yu to be satisfied
yur not comfortable with
my own skin...
but
want to keep me around.....


why?.....